尼斯恐怖袭击

15-07-16
终于，第一次。自己一个人策划的独自旅行。
普罗旺斯薰衣草 三天两夜

出发前，划过instagram，出现的却是#prayfornice
尼斯英国人散步大道14号发生了恐怖袭击。

“转站而已，我不会逗留久”“酒店订了，怎么在尼斯叻”
“发生了不会再发生吧”“怎么办？？？？？？？？”

心开始怕时人也已经在飞机途中……心野啊

找个导游吧！飞机里有wifi，七个小时飞行我不停地网搜，没有一个愿意接那么急的游客，不然就把价钱抬高，我也没发给定金，都一律被拒。

然而当中，只有一个愿意回复。

“刚好有几位游客和你一样同天去看薰衣草，你愿意一起拼团吗？”
废话，当然无比愿意。

于是，我们初遇。

小白与小胖

I am back!
Diary is not working for me.
I want to stay low profile while at the same time am an attention seeker. Well.

Sharing is good.
Too bad my English is still lousy.

Initial plan was to write a travel journal for my solo trip in Italy.
Things had just totally changed while I made a decision to continue my journey from Italy to France.
Paris, city of romance.
Thought it was a fairy tale
But I fucked up.
Not sure it was a romantic story for all or I was just being a fool.

I want to write it down when the feelings are still strong-ly aching deep inside my heart.
Before my brain starting to take control over my heart. (which takes ages)
Please stay tuned.

-Love will make you forget the time
Time will let you forget the love.-

My favorite Cartoon

看蠟筆小新不會變壞！15句人生名言

文／喪女

《蠟筆小新》是喪女小時候很喜歡的動畫，這一陣子有小新展覽，還特地跟朋友去朝聖呢！但老師跟媽媽都不喜歡我們看，因為小新調皮搗蛋、好色又愛裸露，怕小孩子會跟著學壞。不過，其實蠟筆小新裡有很多大道理欸，如果有人阻止你看小新，快給他們看這篇！

我尤其喜歡兩部劇場版，《風起雲湧！猛烈！大人帝國的反擊》、《超時空！風起雲湧 我的新娘》，都超級感人，好可惜臼井老師過世了...現在來跟大家說說，蠟筆小新到底藏了些什麼人生道理呢：

1.認為自己一個人就夠強大的傢伙，沒有強大的資格。──野原廣志

2.我現在很幸福！能夠看到家人的笑容是最幸福的事，別小瞧我的幸福啊！──野原廣志

3.雖然你可能無法理解，但所謂的「父母」啊，為了孩子什麼事都做得到。──野原美冴

4.就算學校成績再好，到了社會也不一定會認同。──野原廣志

5.努力就是一種才能，烏龜努力的話也可以贏過兔子啊！──野原新之助

6.我很幸福，因為身邊有你這個朋友，我甚至認為是為了認識你而生的。──風間徹

7.小葵還小，所以大家得守護她才行，你也是在大家的守護下長大的呀。──野原美冴

8.小白是我的朋友、是我的家人！有爸爸、媽媽、我、小葵、小白...小白是我們家的一份子、是野原小白！──野原新之助

9.夢不會逃走，逃走的一直都是自己。──野原廣志

10.一直愛著一個女人，這不是很厲害很酷的事嗎！──野原廣志

11.命運這種東西啊，就是讓你猶豫到底是這個好、還是那個好？──高倉文太(園長先生)

12.弱者不會原諒別人，因為「原諒」是強者的證明。──野原廣志

13.在別人不知道的地方說朋友好話的人，才是可以相信的人。──野原廣志

14.做錯事的話一定要說對不起喔，因為幼稚園得大家都這麼做啊。──野原新之助

15.我結婚的時候，覺得美冴根本是奧黛莉赫本，婚後才知道，是夾心麵包啊...──野原廣志

看著野原一家耍白癡，但偶爾又流露出緊緊相依的親情和友情，真的很打動我欸！

而且野原廣志是日本網友心中，第三名優秀的爸爸喔！因為野原廣志真的很愛很愛家人，貼近現實、努力打拼、珍惜微小幸福的男人，真的很帥啊！

我很爱看蜡笔小新，然后幻想野原广志是我的爸爸，那该多好。

negative

I can't stand the stress that current job given to me, in fact every jobs.

I'm such a coward in handling stress. How the hell I can survive in my future?

I'm so worried about my career. What to do? I'm so negative. I'm so depressed. Sometimes always have the thought of ending my life. But I can't.  I'm a coward.  I feel insecure abt everything. I need positive power. God bless me.

我要搬

我到底几时才能搬？
还有一星期就开工了。我到底能不能搬的？
很兴衰的咯！

我不要每天窝在家做废材。
姣龙得云雨，终非池中物。妳是困不住我的...HoHoHo ~

感恩我能比别人快一步毕业，好让我"慢慢"规划我的末来。
我可不想享受所谓的大学生活，没钱让我浪费LOL。但话说回来当时兼职做freelance不错的。每月自己赚个2~3千，挺过瘾的哈哈！好怀念...

我的志愿是什么？我还能实现梦想吗？
星币不停地涨，我看根本来不及治了。哪来那么多钱看医生，Consultation - fee 的钱我都舍不得。

其实，我现在即将来临的工作不错嘛~ 人工高，福利好。希望上司同事都很好。

长大了咯! 天无绝人之路。我要加油!  ;)

I hate doing group assignment with girlssssssss
Complain complain go die la

S.H.E 11周年生日快乐

在Youtube看着《S.H.E 11周年生日快乐》live!!!
一面看一面哭啊……太感动了。。
从9岁追她们追到20岁，想到很多以前追星的傻事，回忆满满满~

永远爱你们啦！！！<3 p="p">

不幸的不行

不管我再怎么拚命，赚再多的钱，都没有用。
不行就是不行……

我想死。

most boring gathering

还好昨天有去看电影，不然我会觉得一整天是在浪费时间！
去了中学gathering，迟点每个就各奔东西，派去penang，perlis，kedah，回美国，回英国……

本来我们应该在Puchong 的 Watervillage，结果plan failed！>.<
不知道下次见面会是何时？
记得上一次new year gathering在志阳家，不懂做莫实在很好玩，很好谈。
我喜欢和很多人做同样一件事的感觉…一起玩，一起聊个话题。

在College的我是个独行侠，我不喜欢以利益关系交朋友，除非是在职场上。一有人靠近我，就是别有目的的人，实在很sienz了~一个人在校园反而更加自在轻松。

所以，难得可以和真心朋友聚一聚，之前很兴奋积极，期望很大，
……失望果然越大。Sien 到~~~~~ OMG O.O

11/8要不要去好呢？两个死党已经下定决心不要去，未免重复昨日情景。
据我所知是好吃好喝啦，只是万一又被孤离的话…叫我死了算吧！

要不要去？要不要去？要不要去？哎……

倒霉

我最近怎么那么倒霉。。。
如果要retake的话，我可能要迟别人毕业几个月。。
是不是昨天我许愿要去旅行，所以天让我failed掉那个subject啊？
呜~~~我不要啊~~~~~~~~~ T_T

悲哀

我得了慢性肠炎，父母不信，不带我去治疗，也不让我用医药卡的钱。

我的药，就是符水。=。=

三不五时痛一次，辛苦，也辛酸。

外表风光，内里凄凉。

一个礼拜零用钱RM100，如果周末有事不回家，那RM100就得撑到2个礼拜，把功课带回家做到三更半夜，又会被骂到狗血淋头……

做人好难，做乖孩子更难。

我没有爱好，不抽烟，不喝酒，不要讲clubbing，CC都没有去过。

每天，在学校，在房间，回家，在房间。

不会驾车，不能跟朋友见面。

我很想去旅行哦，好想好想哦~~~

一个人也无所谓。

明年毕业，剩不到365天，找到工作后就宣布结束自由，向生活压力say hello了。

做parttime咯，没办法啊…我要存钱，去旅行，开阔眼界，到时得什么病都死而无憾了。

真想什么都不管了！

这个月会忙得不可社交，求生不得，求死不能，白发丛生，满面沧桑。还请真朋友多多关心我，假朋友少点利用我，感激~ ;-(

It's hurt watching my best friend turning into a bixch slowly... I can't do anything so far she is happy apparently, wait until she uses me to the full then dump me aside... 2 weeks left, I must bear until the last...... lifegoeson~ :')

Damn Stressful

Back from Sabah trip=back to reality..

Been forced by family to go Sabah since cheap ticket was purchased last yearr~ RM30 go&return O.O
Missed one week classes..
I felt extremely stressed throughout the whole trip!!
Every night I close my eyes, I could see my classmates looking down on me..
Everyone has handed in their assignments, but I haven't started yet.

The worst moment was I got an anonymous call at midnight.. 囧
I totally forgot who it was, until it started barking like mad-the one who used to tortured me as his hobby. I WAS TIRED, NEAR EXHAUSTED.
Turned off the phone, back to sleep. I seem have made him madder. SMS me with aggressive content.
Sigh... it has been a long time, y he seems have getting more childish?

Whatever, I shouldn't be influenced by him at all~

Everyday 6am morning jog, 7-11pm supervise keep fit programme (i'm vice organizer).
Should I pull out? Will they appreciate me? Am I just an useless "vase" for them?

Lecturers teach till which chapter? When is the deadline? How to do my assignment? What to do?

I'M SO FREAKING STRESSED!!! ;( 

Complicated Feeling

I believe many ppl have blogged about "complicated feeling" stuffs~ x)
I can't think of a suitable title so I just name it like that.. whatever.. I just need a place to release these shitty feelings.

The feeling of being left out
I always wonder why this could happen to me all the time (club activities)! Been asked for catwalk training for 3days. 1st day, they changed location by telling everyone, except me. I found the place by myself T_T
2nd day, Alan asked me out for movie, at first I scared they might NEED me. But since they forgot me, I also want to ffk them, "wait till they call me see how la.." I think. Unfortunately, after I finished watching movie, back to campus, there were no call, no msg, nothing at all. I though they were busy so just ignore me. But the truth is, the training has been CANCELLED again. NO ONE INFORM ME. The 3rd day, I dulan liao. Just dun go dun go dun go. They wan lanci me just go ahead. Mana tau, they cancelled the training again.. N I DUNNO. wtffff

Again, same club, held a gathering night. Since the catwalk training incident, I afraid to attend. I have totally no sense of belonging there.. This time was funny. I didn't attend it. The next day many of them asked whether I could recall any funny moment last night.. "Oh ya u absent that night", then just turn their head to another person who attended...... C'mon!! At least pretend to ask why I was not there laaaaaaa... So hurt leh like that... But I think my decision was right, even I went there I will also be treated like transparent jellyfish.

Where is my friends? We were good hanging together, we were good friends, they used to treat me like their precious gem, we always used to have many topics to chat... ;(

Nah~ fake friends I don't want. I know I am just worthless to them. After finishing "INTI's Biggest Loser" event I will just quit. I know bad rumors about me will then start to spread. Friends bcm hi-bye friends, fake friends bcm strangers. I just need to be prepared to accept all these.

I know there must be a place that fit me. There must be many true friends will find me worthy. =)

From now on, study is my one and only priority.

Say NO to fake friends!

Photoshooting-cheongsam

My broadband quota has reached it's limit!

Sorry for late updates~ :p

I had finally styled my hair into wavy curls hehe.. 

An awkward moment that the photographer's flashlight ran out of battery in the middle of shooting! My technical glowing skin no more!!!! 囧

He has no time and mood to touch up the photos during CNY, so I only share some non-edited photos here, with no flash ofcoz... :( 

That's all I got so far, post here dulu cz after CNY I have totally no mood to see the pictures anymore. 

May not creating album for this shooting cz CNY has passed, so alan if u see this u get what i mean. I CARE! ;p

Anyway, special thanks to Alan as photographer and his beloved Philips for sponsoring his house as studio. LOL~

Lastly, Happy Chinese New Year to all!!! ;)

Photoshooting-cheongsam

Going to have my cheongsam photoshooting at 8pm without any preparation...
The only thing I get nervous is HOW SHOULD I STYLE MY HAIR?
Not to mention others' views, even myself get bored with my current hairstyle...=.=

Hope this time photoshooting will go well, no fail.
However, I pretty sure this will only be a "testing-shoot", which I hv to prepare not to get nice photos taken...

've got to go, hope can update tonight or tomorrow perhaps ;)

Something about me-stingy

When I get crazy about something, I will make every single effort to get what I want.
For my best friends who know me well, I'm not as rich as the "shallow friends" imagine...
I'm actually very stingy yet poor when matter comes to money. :p

When I want something I get obsessed to, limited budget is always a serious case for me... (sigh)
For example, skin foundation xD
So,
I do research on internet-gather all users' reviews and make comparison, where can I buy the cheapest 1, any bad ingredients it contain?, does the containment 'durable',  bla bla bla... Seriously I spend a week to come out with the best conclusion x)

The most ridiculous thing is... I can go to every brands counters to try on their testers... with assistant of the sales person somemore... then... try to persuade them give me sample go home to test...
just in order to get the best 1 I want.
*Pavilion sales person are very kind, they won't do force selling but being very nice to their customers. Even u didn't buy anything at last after try on almost everything on their counter by wasting them a lot of time... they still, send u off with smile~
(I can save a lot by doing this lol)

For sure, story will be totally different when u go to Sg.Wang counters-snob salesgirls are everywhere! N they do cheating as well!! Lie to me cheap 1 no stock no tester push me buy expensive stuff, left last 1 only be fast last day offer bla bla bla... u tot im super rich man's innocent shopaholic daughter ah?!
To face this, I can b very thick face say "I DONT WANT, NO MONEY".

The money is mine, my father never give me a penny since i'm born, unless Chinese New Year will give me angpau RM500, RM500 sounds a big amount but imagine he only gives me money once a year... T_T

Ofcoz, not every ppl dare to do this, being poor makes my face thicker and thicker, making my life extra abnormal... :')

I can't do wrong decision, as it costs a lot of money.
Even if when I realize it's wrong, I will still continue using it, cz I hv no option to buy another 1.

I'm only stingy to myself, not my family and friends. Don't misunderstand ya~ :P

I always envy my friends who have parents who spoil them as the golden apple of their eyes. Parents give them money, they say it is their SAVINGS, when go shopping, they call their parents, "I BUY THIS LATER I CLAIM IT BACK FROM U K". -they are so smart.=.= I call this "zero-loss 100% gain investment", they get to SAVE their so-called hard savings, n could spend happily, like buying F.O.C stuffs. =.=
N ofcoz I hv friends who own Platinum credit cards too~

I'm not saying they are bad, they are my good friends. They won't be arrogant which I admire very much! =)

Also, I appreciate my current life. I have many good friends which can't buy with money. My mum loves me very much. My life is so much better compare to others. Life's good or bad it still moves on. Face's thin or thick i sill poor. LOL~

Appreciate life =)

50% completion

So, how u guys think about my blog layout? Like it or dislike? Anything need to be improved?
The colors, description, pictures, etc...

Tell me tell me tell me~ Ur comments are my inspiration!

Stay tuned! =D

最重要的决定

这个blog，我想重新启动它很久了。可是，一直久久没法开始。
始因一个问题：英文好还是中文好？

我真的想了超级久。。。

中文，灵感来源不绝，很能写，但怕很少人会看。
英文，烂到爆。但可以练我的英文，但会写得很沉闷，怕没人看。
所以，不管中文/英文，都没人会支持。=。=

我一就要平平淡淡，不然就要轰轰烈烈、一鸣惊人！双子座嘛~

今年内要做决定了，怎么办？！！！

Regarding this blog, I'm thinking of reactivate it since long time ago. However, haven't started do anything until now~
All because of one problem: English or Chinese? O.O

Can't really make a decision wei......

Chinese, drives lots of ideas to me, I can write it very fluent, but I afraid less people will get attracted to my blog.
English, is not my field. I'm freaking poor in English. Well at least I can train my English by blogging, but I believe the content will be kindda boring, afraid no ppl like it.
So in conclusion, either English or Chinese, there will be no ppl read my blog...=.=

One I choose to be super dull; or I want it to be blockbuster!!! (this translates gemini's personality well~)

I have to make a decision within this year, how to do? ! ! ! >.<

Appreciation

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone,
and a day to love someone,
but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. <3

Appreciate the people who means to you.
Life's good. Every failure is a lesson which drive us to success.