真想什么都不管了！

这个月会忙得不可社交，求生不得，求死不能，白发丛生，满面沧桑。还请真朋友多多关心我，假朋友少点利用我，感激~ ;-(

It's hurt watching my best friend turning into a bixch slowly... I can't do anything so far she is happy apparently, wait until she uses me to the full then dump me aside... 2 weeks left, I must bear until the last...... lifegoeson~ :')

Damn Stressful

Back from Sabah trip=back to reality..

Been forced by family to go Sabah since cheap ticket was purchased last yearr~ RM30 go&return O.O
Missed one week classes..
I felt extremely stressed throughout the whole trip!!
Every night I close my eyes, I could see my classmates looking down on me..
Everyone has handed in their assignments, but I haven't started yet.

The worst moment was I got an anonymous call at midnight.. 囧
I totally forgot who it was, until it started barking like mad-the one who used to tortured me as his hobby. I WAS TIRED, NEAR EXHAUSTED.
Turned off the phone, back to sleep. I seem have made him madder. SMS me with aggressive content.
Sigh... it has been a long time, y he seems have getting more childish?

Whatever, I shouldn't be influenced by him at all~

Everyday 6am morning jog, 7-11pm supervise keep fit programme (i'm vice organizer).
Should I pull out? Will they appreciate me? Am I just an useless "vase" for them?

Lecturers teach till which chapter? When is the deadline? How to do my assignment? What to do?

I'M SO FREAKING STRESSED!!! ;( 

Complicated Feeling

I believe many ppl have blogged about "complicated feeling" stuffs~ x)
I can't think of a suitable title so I just name it like that.. whatever.. I just need a place to release these shitty feelings.

The feeling of being left out
I always wonder why this could happen to me all the time (club activities)! Been asked for catwalk training for 3days. 1st day, they changed location by telling everyone, except me. I found the place by myself T_T
2nd day, Alan asked me out for movie, at first I scared they might NEED me. But since they forgot me, I also want to ffk them, "wait till they call me see how la.." I think. Unfortunately, after I finished watching movie, back to campus, there were no call, no msg, nothing at all. I though they were busy so just ignore me. But the truth is, the training has been CANCELLED again. NO ONE INFORM ME. The 3rd day, I dulan liao. Just dun go dun go dun go. They wan lanci me just go ahead. Mana tau, they cancelled the training again.. N I DUNNO. wtffff

Again, same club, held a gathering night. Since the catwalk training incident, I afraid to attend. I have totally no sense of belonging there.. This time was funny. I didn't attend it. The next day many of them asked whether I could recall any funny moment last night.. "Oh ya u absent that night", then just turn their head to another person who attended...... C'mon!! At least pretend to ask why I was not there laaaaaaa... So hurt leh like that... But I think my decision was right, even I went there I will also be treated like transparent jellyfish.

Where is my friends? We were good hanging together, we were good friends, they used to treat me like their precious gem, we always used to have many topics to chat... ;(

Nah~ fake friends I don't want. I know I am just worthless to them. After finishing "INTI's Biggest Loser" event I will just quit. I know bad rumors about me will then start to spread. Friends bcm hi-bye friends, fake friends bcm strangers. I just need to be prepared to accept all these.

I know there must be a place that fit me. There must be many true friends will find me worthy. =)

From now on, study is my one and only priority.

Say NO to fake friends!

Photoshooting-cheongsam

My broadband quota has reached it's limit!

Sorry for late updates~ :p

I had finally styled my hair into wavy curls hehe.. 

An awkward moment that the photographer's flashlight ran out of battery in the middle of shooting! My technical glowing skin no more!!!! 囧

He has no time and mood to touch up the photos during CNY, so I only share some non-edited photos here, with no flash ofcoz... :( 

That's all I got so far, post here dulu cz after CNY I have totally no mood to see the pictures anymore. 

May not creating album for this shooting cz CNY has passed, so alan if u see this u get what i mean. I CARE! ;p

Anyway, special thanks to Alan as photographer and his beloved Philips for sponsoring his house as studio. LOL~

Lastly, Happy Chinese New Year to all!!! ;)

Photoshooting-cheongsam

Going to have my cheongsam photoshooting at 8pm without any preparation...
The only thing I get nervous is HOW SHOULD I STYLE MY HAIR?
Not to mention others' views, even myself get bored with my current hairstyle...=.=

Hope this time photoshooting will go well, no fail.
However, I pretty sure this will only be a "testing-shoot", which I hv to prepare not to get nice photos taken...

've got to go, hope can update tonight or tomorrow perhaps ;)

Something about me-stingy

When I get crazy about something, I will make every single effort to get what I want.
For my best friends who know me well, I'm not as rich as the "shallow friends" imagine...
I'm actually very stingy yet poor when matter comes to money. :p

When I want something I get obsessed to, limited budget is always a serious case for me... (sigh)
For example, skin foundation xD
So,
I do research on internet-gather all users' reviews and make comparison, where can I buy the cheapest 1, any bad ingredients it contain?, does the containment 'durable',  bla bla bla... Seriously I spend a week to come out with the best conclusion x)

The most ridiculous thing is... I can go to every brands counters to try on their testers... with assistant of the sales person somemore... then... try to persuade them give me sample go home to test...
just in order to get the best 1 I want.
*Pavilion sales person are very kind, they won't do force selling but being very nice to their customers. Even u didn't buy anything at last after try on almost everything on their counter by wasting them a lot of time... they still, send u off with smile~
(I can save a lot by doing this lol)

For sure, story will be totally different when u go to Sg.Wang counters-snob salesgirls are everywhere! N they do cheating as well!! Lie to me cheap 1 no stock no tester push me buy expensive stuff, left last 1 only be fast last day offer bla bla bla... u tot im super rich man's innocent shopaholic daughter ah?!
To face this, I can b very thick face say "I DONT WANT, NO MONEY".

The money is mine, my father never give me a penny since i'm born, unless Chinese New Year will give me angpau RM500, RM500 sounds a big amount but imagine he only gives me money once a year... T_T

Ofcoz, not every ppl dare to do this, being poor makes my face thicker and thicker, making my life extra abnormal... :')

I can't do wrong decision, as it costs a lot of money.
Even if when I realize it's wrong, I will still continue using it, cz I hv no option to buy another 1.

I'm only stingy to myself, not my family and friends. Don't misunderstand ya~ :P

I always envy my friends who have parents who spoil them as the golden apple of their eyes. Parents give them money, they say it is their SAVINGS, when go shopping, they call their parents, "I BUY THIS LATER I CLAIM IT BACK FROM U K". -they are so smart.=.= I call this "zero-loss 100% gain investment", they get to SAVE their so-called hard savings, n could spend happily, like buying F.O.C stuffs. =.=
N ofcoz I hv friends who own Platinum credit cards too~

I'm not saying they are bad, they are my good friends. They won't be arrogant which I admire very much! =)

Also, I appreciate my current life. I have many good friends which can't buy with money. My mum loves me very much. My life is so much better compare to others. Life's good or bad it still moves on. Face's thin or thick i sill poor. LOL~

Appreciate life =)

50% completion

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