Complicated Feeling

I believe many ppl have blogged about "complicated feeling" stuffs~ x)
I can't think of a suitable title so I just name it like that.. whatever.. I just need a place to release these shitty feelings.

The feeling of being left out
I always wonder why this could happen to me all the time (club activities)! Been asked for catwalk training for 3days. 1st day, they changed location by telling everyone, except me. I found the place by myself T_T
2nd day, Alan asked me out for movie, at first I scared they might NEED me. But since they forgot me, I also want to ffk them, "wait till they call me see how la.." I think. Unfortunately, after I finished watching movie, back to campus, there were no call, no msg, nothing at all. I though they were busy so just ignore me. But the truth is, the training has been CANCELLED again. NO ONE INFORM ME. The 3rd day, I dulan liao. Just dun go dun go dun go. They wan lanci me just go ahead. Mana tau, they cancelled the training again.. N I DUNNO. wtffff

Again, same club, held a gathering night. Since the catwalk training incident, I afraid to attend. I have totally no sense of belonging there.. This time was funny. I didn't attend it. The next day many of them asked whether I could recall any funny moment last night.. "Oh ya u absent that night", then just turn their head to another person who attended...... C'mon!! At least pretend to ask why I was not there laaaaaaa... So hurt leh like that... But I think my decision was right, even I went there I will also be treated like transparent jellyfish.

Where is my friends? We were good hanging together, we were good friends, they used to treat me like their precious gem, we always used to have many topics to chat... ;(

Nah~ fake friends I don't want. I know I am just worthless to them. After finishing "INTI's Biggest Loser" event I will just quit. I know bad rumors about me will then start to spread. Friends bcm hi-bye friends, fake friends bcm strangers. I just need to be prepared to accept all these.

I know there must be a place that fit me. There must be many true friends will find me worthy. =)

From now on, study is my one and only priority.

Say NO to fake friends!

Photoshooting-cheongsam

My broadband quota has reached it's limit!

Sorry for late updates~ :p

I had finally styled my hair into wavy curls hehe.. 

An awkward moment that the photographer's flashlight ran out of battery in the middle of shooting! My technical glowing skin no more!!!! 囧

He has no time and mood to touch up the photos during CNY, so I only share some non-edited photos here, with no flash ofcoz... :( 

That's all I got so far, post here dulu cz after CNY I have totally no mood to see the pictures anymore. 

May not creating album for this shooting cz CNY has passed, so alan if u see this u get what i mean. I CARE! ;p

Anyway, special thanks to Alan as photographer and his beloved Philips for sponsoring his house as studio. LOL~

Lastly, Happy Chinese New Year to all!!! ;)

Photoshooting-cheongsam

Going to have my cheongsam photoshooting at 8pm without any preparation...
The only thing I get nervous is HOW SHOULD I STYLE MY HAIR?
Not to mention others' views, even myself get bored with my current hairstyle...=.=

Hope this time photoshooting will go well, no fail.
However, I pretty sure this will only be a "testing-shoot", which I hv to prepare not to get nice photos taken...

've got to go, hope can update tonight or tomorrow perhaps ;)

Something about me-stingy

When I get crazy about something, I will make every single effort to get what I want.
For my best friends who know me well, I'm not as rich as the "shallow friends" imagine...
I'm actually very stingy yet poor when matter comes to money. :p

When I want something I get obsessed to, limited budget is always a serious case for me... (sigh)
For example, skin foundation xD
So,
I do research on internet-gather all users' reviews and make comparison, where can I buy the cheapest 1, any bad ingredients it contain?, does the containment 'durable',  bla bla bla... Seriously I spend a week to come out with the best conclusion x)

The most ridiculous thing is... I can go to every brands counters to try on their testers... with assistant of the sales person somemore... then... try to persuade them give me sample go home to test...
just in order to get the best 1 I want.
*Pavilion sales person are very kind, they won't do force selling but being very nice to their customers. Even u didn't buy anything at last after try on almost everything on their counter by wasting them a lot of time... they still, send u off with smile~
(I can save a lot by doing this lol)

For sure, story will be totally different when u go to Sg.Wang counters-snob salesgirls are everywhere! N they do cheating as well!! Lie to me cheap 1 no stock no tester push me buy expensive stuff, left last 1 only be fast last day offer bla bla bla... u tot im super rich man's innocent shopaholic daughter ah?!
To face this, I can b very thick face say "I DONT WANT, NO MONEY".

The money is mine, my father never give me a penny since i'm born, unless Chinese New Year will give me angpau RM500, RM500 sounds a big amount but imagine he only gives me money once a year... T_T

Ofcoz, not every ppl dare to do this, being poor makes my face thicker and thicker, making my life extra abnormal... :')

I can't do wrong decision, as it costs a lot of money.
Even if when I realize it's wrong, I will still continue using it, cz I hv no option to buy another 1.

I'm only stingy to myself, not my family and friends. Don't misunderstand ya~ :P

I always envy my friends who have parents who spoil them as the golden apple of their eyes. Parents give them money, they say it is their SAVINGS, when go shopping, they call their parents, "I BUY THIS LATER I CLAIM IT BACK FROM U K". -they are so smart.=.= I call this "zero-loss 100% gain investment", they get to SAVE their so-called hard savings, n could spend happily, like buying F.O.C stuffs. =.=
N ofcoz I hv friends who own Platinum credit cards too~

I'm not saying they are bad, they are my good friends. They won't be arrogant which I admire very much! =)

Also, I appreciate my current life. I have many good friends which can't buy with money. My mum loves me very much. My life is so much better compare to others. Life's good or bad it still moves on. Face's thin or thick i sill poor. LOL~

Appreciate life =)

50% completion

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The colors, description, pictures, etc...

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最重要的决定

这个blog，我想重新启动它很久了。可是，一直久久没法开始。
始因一个问题：英文好还是中文好？

我真的想了超级久。。。

中文，灵感来源不绝，很能写，但怕很少人会看。
英文，烂到爆。但可以练我的英文，但会写得很沉闷，怕没人看。
所以，不管中文/英文，都没人会支持。=。=

我一就要平平淡淡，不然就要轰轰烈烈、一鸣惊人！双子座嘛~

今年内要做决定了，怎么办？！！！

Regarding this blog, I'm thinking of reactivate it since long time ago. However, haven't started do anything until now~
All because of one problem: English or Chinese? O.O

Can't really make a decision wei......

Chinese, drives lots of ideas to me, I can write it very fluent, but I afraid less people will get attracted to my blog.
English, is not my field. I'm freaking poor in English. Well at least I can train my English by blogging, but I believe the content will be kindda boring, afraid no ppl like it.
So in conclusion, either English or Chinese, there will be no ppl read my blog...=.=

One I choose to be super dull; or I want it to be blockbuster!!! (this translates gemini's personality well~)

I have to make a decision within this year, how to do? ! ! ! >.<

Appreciation

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone,
and a day to love someone,
but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. <3

Appreciate the people who means to you.
Life's good. Every failure is a lesson which drive us to success.