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Complicated Feeling

2012-02-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

I believe many ppl have blogged about "complicated feeling" stuffs~ x)
I can't think of a suitable title so I just name it like that.. whatever.. I just need a place to release these shitty feelings.

The feeling of being left out

The feeling of dissapointment

The feeling of lonely

The feeling of worthless

List down in advance to get 50% relief, it's 1.23am now, have to wake up early tmr.
Just realise I'm such a pessimistic in inner heart, like a clown that wearing mask...

How to cheer up?
Ans: Real friends. Find me to chat, makan, or do ntg. instead of asking me to do works...

Photoshooting-cheongsam

2012-01-25T14:24:00.000+08:00

My broadband quota has reached it's limit!

Sorry for late updates~ :p

I had finally styled my hair into wavy curls hehe..

An awkward moment that the photographer's flashlight ran out of battery in the middle of shooting! My technical glowing skin no more!!!! 囧

He has no time and mood to touch up the photos during CNY, so I only share some non-edited photos here, with no flash ofcoz... :(

That's all I got so far, post here dulu cz after CNY I have totally no mood to see the pictures anymore.

May not creating album for this shooting cz CNY has passed, so alan if u see this u get what i mean. I CARE! ;p

Anyway, special thanks to Alan as photographer and his beloved Philips for sponsoring his house as studio. LOL~

Lastly, Happy Chinese New Year to all!!! ;)

Photoshooting-cheongsam

2012-01-19T19:20:00.001+08:00

Going to have my cheongsam photoshooting at 8pm without any preparation...
The only thing I get nervous is HOW SHOULD I STYLE MY HAIR?
Not to mention others' views, even myself get bored with my current hairstyle...=.=

Hope this time photoshooting will go well, no fail.
However, I pretty sure this will only be a "testing-shoot", which I hv to prepare not to get nice photos taken...

've got to go, hope can update tonight or tomorrow perhaps ;)

Something about me-stingy

2012-01-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

When I get crazy about something, I will make every single effort to get what I want.
For my best friends who know me well, I'm not as rich as the "shallow friends" imagine...
I'm actually very stingy yet poor when matter comes to money. :p

When I want something I get obsessed to, limited budget is always a serious case for me... (sigh)
For example, skin foundation xD
So,
I do research on internet-gather all users' reviews and make comparison, where can I buy the cheapest 1, any bad ingredients it contain?, does the containment 'durable', bla bla bla... Seriously I spend a week to come out with the best conclusion x)

The most ridiculous thing is... I can go to every brands counters to try on their testers... with assistant of the sales person somemore... then... try to persuade them give me sample go home to test...
just in order to get the best 1 I want.
*Pavilion sales person are very kind, they won't do force selling but being very nice to their customers. Even u didn't buy anything at last after try on almost everything on their counter by wasting them a lot of time... they still, send u off with smile~
(I can save a lot by doing this lol)

For sure, story will be totally different when u go to Sg.Wang counters-snob salesgirls are everywhere! N they do cheating as well!! Lie to me cheap 1 no stock no tester push me buy expensive stuff, left last 1 only be fast last day offer bla bla bla... u tot im super rich man's innocent shopaholic daughter ah?!
To face this, I can b very thick face say "I DONT WANT, NO MONEY".

The money is mine, my father never give me a penny since i'm born, unless Chinese New Year will give me angpau RM500, RM500 sounds a big amount but imagine he only gives me money once a year... T_T

Ofcoz, not every ppl dare to do this, being poor makes my face thicker and thicker, making my life extra abnormal... :')

I can't do wrong decision, as it costs a lot of money.
Even if when I realize it's wrong, I will still continue using it, cz I hv no option to buy another 1.

I'm only stingy to myself, not my family and friends. Don't misunderstand ya~ :P

I always envy my friends who have parents who spoil them as the golden apple of their eyes. Parents give them money, they say it is their SAVINGS, when go shopping, they call their parents, "I BUY THIS LATER I CLAIM IT BACK FROM U K". -they are so smart.=.= I call this "zero-loss 100% gain investment", they get to SAVE their so-called hard savings, n could spend happily, like buying F.O.C stuffs. =.=
N ofcoz I hv friends who own Platinum credit cards too~

I'm not saying they are bad, they are my good friends. They won't be arrogant which I admire very much! =)

Also, I appreciate my current life. I have many good friends which can't buy with money. My mum loves me very much. My life is so much better compare to others. Life's good or bad it still moves on. Face's thin or thick i sill poor. LOL~

Appreciate life =)

50% completion

2011-12-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

So, how u guys think about my blog layout? Like it or dislike? Anything need to be improved?
The colors, description, pictures, etc...

Tell me tell me tell me~ Ur comments are my inspiration!

Stay tuned! =D

最重要的决定

2011-12-24T09:57:00.000+08:00

这个blog，我想重新启动它很久了。可是，一直久久没法开始。
始因一个问题：英文好还是中文好？

我真的想了超级久。。。

中文，灵感来源不绝，很能写，但怕很少人会看。
英文，烂到爆。但可以练我的英文，但会写得很沉闷，怕没人看。
所以，不管中文/英文，都没人会支持。=。=

我一就要平平淡淡，不然就要轰轰烈烈、一鸣惊人！双子座嘛~

今年内要做决定了，怎么办？！！！

Regarding this blog, I'm thinking of reactivate it since long time ago. However, haven't started do anything until now~
All because of one problem: English or Chinese? O.O

Can't really make a decision wei......

Chinese, drives lots of ideas to me, I can write it very fluent, but I afraid less people will get attracted to my blog.
English, is not my field. I'm freaking poor in English. Well at least I can train my English by blogging, but I believe the content will be kindda boring, afraid no ppl like it.
So in conclusion, either English or Chinese, there will be no ppl read my blog...=.=

One I choose to be super dull; or I want it to be blockbuster!!! (this translates gemini's personality well~)

I have to make a decision within this year, how to do? ! ! ! >.<

Appreciation

2011-12-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone,
and a day to love someone,
but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. <3

Appreciate the people who means to you.
Life's good. Every failure is a lesson which drive us to success.

I love me

2011-11-22T17:05:00.001+08:00

恋了这么多次，你还是不明白男人是什么吗？别再相信什么甜言蜜语，他说的如此熟练，摆明了已经练习了数百次了，别做梦的以为你是最后一个听到的。

学会独立，建立自己的生活圈，你依赖他越少，就越不怕失去，你越强大，就越不会受委屈，弄套满意的行头，开始自己的生活。你可以性感，可以妖娆，可以清纯......唯独不可以平庸！

是时候爱自己了。加油~

Happy birthday

2011-11-10T11:02:00.000+08:00

My actual birthday is on 19th June. One day, I gotta feeling, changed my birthday date to 8th November on my facebook profile, and got "wishes" from the people. It's very funny that there were people did wish me on my actual birthday b4, and posted the SAME wishes on my wall again! Haiz... friend...

人每天都在成长，每个人，每一天都是生日。

这个月里，我经历了很多神奇的过程。到现在都无法相信……

我表面风光，其实生活过得很苦。除了我，不敢告诉任何一个人……

2011，我在学校没有朋友，其实，不是这样的。

2011，我常常都在一个人过，其实，不必这样的。

自怨自艾没人怜，现在想想又何苦作践自己？当我决定做一样事情，无论它有几荒唐，我都不会在意别人怎么去看。因为我知道，当我成功后，就会自动闭起他们的嘴巴，颠倒过去对我的冷嘲热讽。我试过，很多次，感觉不错。批评我就厉害，当我成功后，为何不见你褒扬我咧？人性的弱点啊~

表面看上去得过且过，可一有人看低我，我就有本事让他摸得一鼻子灰。

所以，你敢瞧不起我，我一定会让你后悔。恐怖没？This is me

Ok，离题了。

回到来，我的生日。

这个月，我体会到很多事情，突然间，突然间认识到很多朋友，可为何他们不在inti。

突然间醒悟，我没朋友的原因。原来我一直被束缚交朋友的权利和自由。我太过，服从另一半了。

是时候爱自己多一点，喜欢做什么就去做！

我决定，重新出发，在8/11/2011，去尽情享受我要做的事情。第一件事，约我最想见到的人，结果被放飞机…那种心情是很难以形容的。==

算，再约另一个我想见的人。代价是必须独自攀山越岭去找她…

这时，ffk那人又得空回来了，为什么！Again，那种心情是难以形容的。==.==

很多要写，写3天写不完的。重点是，我比从前快乐。

人生如戏，我这个月的经历可以写成小说了。

8/11 这天，真的很开心，比实际生日那天还要开心千万倍。谢谢。

生日快乐，日日快乐。

Grandma

2011-10-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

Grandma has been sent to hospital, hope everything will be alright.
I'm so worried but can't do anything.

May god bless her. 阿弥陀佛。

Girl's Language

2011-10-18T14:07:00.000+08:00

Girl's Language :

If She Don't Text You :
- It's Because She's Waiting For You To Text Her

When She Walks Away From You Mad :
- Follow Her

When Shes Quiet :
- Ask Her What's Wrong

When She Ignores You :
- Give Her Your Attention

When She Pushes YOU AWAY :
- Pull Her BACK

When You See Her Crying :
- Wipe Her Tears & Ask What's Wrong

When She Says Go Away :
- Just Go Close To Her & Give Her Hug

Yea... it's just so true~ Why can't a girl just express what she feels right away instead of showing so many "pattern" like that?

Seriously I don't know, maybe it's just the gift from God to every gals lol... that makes the guy nervoussssss...
Perhaps, this is also one of the causes to the growth of gay love in the world~~~

I wish, he can concern me more, no, just a little... I tell him all my problems directly without "pattern-pattern" but he's just keep avoiding like a pondan..... or just scold me to shut uppppp and everything will be fine after that!

I can't stand this any longer if he keeps showing that bull shit pondan pattern like that.......... God, I want a real man~~~

Sei lo

2011-10-10T17:55:00.000+08:00

Sei lo sei lo die lo this time! Stop being lazy pls~~~~~

This Thursday having Finance test,
next Monday having English test & Computing assignment deadline (shit!),
and... next week don't know when need to hand in another assignment!!

Can't do it during weekend cz I'm joining a competition on this Saturday at Sungei Wang!!!!!
So excited yet tension!

Excited because of the competition, tension because of the bunch of school tasks~ @@

My life would be great without tests & assignments...

Oh ya btw the competition is called Kungfu Online Couple Model Search (translate from Chinese)... I got into top 10 and this week they are going to select only FIVE gals to enter Semi-Final~~~ Oh yeah sounds so cigek!

:'(

2011-09-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

I'm a flat-footed person who don't know how to flatter.

Today I went for a club's meeting for the coming biggest event in INTI-Ms. & Mr. Inti Orientation Night.
Few days ago, I was assigned to sell 10 pcs of the entrance tickets. On that time, I feel a a bit worried that I'm unable to sell them out.

Today, the Organizing Chairperson told me that I HAVE TO ADD 20 MORE TICKETS TO SELL. Oh my oh my oh my god~ I kept asking why why why and she said she even selling more tickets than me ok its not a reason tats her problem but hey c'mon she's OC and im just a dumb dumb low low position member under her........

The 20 tickets is a punishment, that i couldn't get the club to find any cash sponsor...

I tried to approach F&N, Clinique, Shills, Dutch Lady, Mango, F.O.S, G2000, VOIR, Loreal, and etc. but all end up makan telur...

The moment she finished telling me about the "punishment", my tears flew out right away... (this year 1st time couldn't hold my tears!!)
Not because the punishment is unreasonable (tho it is), not because of my inability to find cash sponsors (yes i am), is because... I can't think of ANY human on earth I can sell to. Even the previous 10 tickets I still can't sell any...

Why can't i sell it? Reason is super clearly stated before: I have no friend here...

In short, I cried like hell because the stupid tickets make me recall my stupid lonely life in INTI...

My head, brought me out from the meeting room, comforted me and said I can leave earlier for the meeting ald... Quite a number of ppl see me cry ah so paisehhhh...

I then... walked alone... to the canteen... bought a soya milk... sat alone in a corner... how I hoped it was a beer...

Even crying also couldn't find a companion to release my stress out. I took out my phone, keep browsing phonebook... haiz... suan liao~

I suspect the soya contains alcohol, keep recalling my bloody sad friend-less life here. I cried somemore more more and more.

Wait Ah Lan finished playing badminton then pretend like ntg happened, go eat dinner.

By the way I managed to call 1 of my friend who is much more dumb than me, she lighten up my life again as I get to know im not the only dumb gal in the world. LOL

She told me a joke:
"Aft this year, I want to study oversea, either Monash U or Melbourne U.
U know, im poor."

Me: "Fxxx you."

*Good news! My head told me I need not to sell the 20 tickets anymore! Yay!!! Thank you so much la~

I will be more appreciated if he can introduce 10 good friends to me i immediate borrow along money sponsor out to the event... lalala~

有得穿裙子啦

2011-09-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

作为一个女生，无畏的顾虑其实看得是比命还重要的。

我很喜欢裙子，可是有机会去穿它真的很稀有。家人看到我穿裙子会取笑我，在学校平时穿裙子不方便~

明天有一场catwalk show case，我虽然不是主角，但是现在却为准备的琐事烦得不得了！

裙，终于可以穿裙啦！！可是…裙都在家里啊！我去哪里找裙？穿裙要有安全裤……我…不懂放哪了啊~！
美，要上镜一定要化妆，我出生到现在就只会涂口红…=.=

沦为B咖，所有事情都要自己解决。烦~

现在不断催眠自己：明天没有人会要看我的，我不重要，所以不要自恋，放心放心…

很想挑战这件裙，但我太瘦了。仔细看那model有练肌肉的~我也要加油了==

*明天我真的一点都不重要，我实在太自恋了~==哎！女人…

中秋节有感

2011-09-13T00:55:00.000+08:00

祝大家中秋节快乐啊！

还好学校离家不远，中秋节家人来找我吃晚餐…好想回家！
我在学校其实并不快乐，每次都是一个人走去上课，放学，最多偶尔只有一个朋友陪伴。

今天中秋节，好多好多人提灯笼，成群结伴有说有笑，好好哦~
我也很想找个朋友提灯笼啊……
看着人来人往的路口，想了很久，很久……脑海还是没有浮现任何可以陪伴我的朋友的影子。
认了吧！其实，我在这里，没有朋友。

我的facebook现在唯一的功能，就是“等候差使”，一有notification，一有人tag我的名字，就是club有mission要做了。

Haiz……讨厌我的人看到应该在暗爽了吧~好戏在后头！

我诉苦的对象只有一个，阿兰。他听完讲要叫完他的朋友出来陪我玩灯笼……我不要，都是男的，给别人看到就更加没有朋友了~

他再说，不用紧，明年中秋节，买一个大大大大的灯笼陪我玩，哇哈哈！我比较希望他做给我咯~不小心烧掉，就再做过咯，厚厚厚~

他几乎都不给我承诺，可能这次看得出我真的很可怜，所以夸下海口吧~不管明年他会不会做到，至少他告诉我的那刻是真心的…（我今年19岁，容许我的想法含有单纯的元素）

朋友啊~你在哪里啊……我好孤单哦。

每次，来找我的《朋友》一定是“有事请”的，叫我做这个，做那个。为什么？！！！我心地很善良的叻！为什么就是没有“没有事”找我的朋友？？？

总有一天，我会找到的，好的东西是需要等待的。

希望我在远方求学的好朋友们，中秋节快乐！我好想她们，她们一定也很想我。

Gan Jiong~!

2011-08-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

再一次鼓起勇气（厚着脸皮）参加另一个比赛~上一次给我中了Shills Model Search Finalists，但遇上大考无法参与，真的是锤心肝啊~！T_T

今次参加Clinique Startour，又中了入围，哇哈哈~真的感觉很骄傲，共有2200+参赛者，选300名入围，再从300名选Top25，然后Top25再选终极3名。

我现在是300名里的其中一名，光是用投票，觉得是不可能进到的…==

可是，进到300名已经很开心、很开心了！！！Oh yeah~!

今晚12am结束投票，希望评审们可以选我进Finalists啦~

现在很紧张啊~~怕进不到，会浪费投我票的朋友们的时间…因为它的voting process很复杂，要Register>Email Verify>Log In>Vote

VOTE by clicking here!!!

~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~紧张~

Innovation in progress!

2011-05-05T13:35:00.000+08:00

Wanna start blogging again! Having final exam now, will bring surprise to u all! Stay tuned!!!

Anyway, do u prefer reading chinese or english version of blog from me? Suggestion please...

STAY TUNED! New h0ng2 is coming soon!!! XOXO

South Austrialian Matriculation (SAM) @ Inti Nilai

2010-03-30T22:07:00.000+08:00

14-12-2010~20-03-2010 幻想+享受+受苦
21-03-2010 Inti University College 开放日
22-03-2010 T-shirt+短裤+拖鞋>报名>迷路（不懂课室在哪里）〉开始上课
23-03-2010 打包〉搬进宿舍

我的心情：迷惘〉无奈〉刺激〉忧伤〉正常
好处：八个月完成，飞哪里都行~
坏处：忙、忙、忙，难、难、难，吐血！

我用了非常手段才能在这里求学，所以我必须得尽全力应付一切困难，让瞧不起我的人向我屈服，向我看齐！

努力。加油！

通告+启事

2009-10-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

陈虹宏

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2009年10月7日

部落格暂时耽搁通告及诚征学习伙伴启事

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由于本人自去年来对高级数学的求知态度不热衷，造成连续两年高级数学未曾及格的的不良记录，因而引起学校老师的高度关注，并危及本人在大马政府教育文凭考获全甲的安全。因此，本人决定开始暂时封闭个人电脑，发愤图强、挑灯夜读，至到本月的小考结束为止。

2. 在这期间，本人所体会的煎熬非一般人所能承担的。故此，本人现急欲征求学习伙伴一位，男女不拘，所需条件如下：

a. 高级数学蝉联甲等。

b. 须有教导数学占弱势的同学之经验。

c. 拥有非一般的耐心者将优先考虑。待遇面议。

3. 请大家献出爱心，若有意在学业上帮助本人者，请按入右下方的留言版告诉本人，热烈发挥您的所长，让人间充满温暖，肯定公德无量。

4. 对于各界人士的热心支持与鼓励，本人先此致以万二分的谢意。若有不便之处，本人亦深感抱歉，敬请原谅。

一位迫需精神与实在鼓励的学生

陈虹宏谨启

***这次Add.Maths pass 不到我就跟我学校的Add. Maths老师同姓！！！！！

我“亲爱”的弟弟

2009-10-02T17:58:00.000+08:00

好！首先我要介绍地上那堆东西，炒饭。这一堆炒饭给了我弟弟一个教训！让无辜的我添了麻烦，却被我家的狗拾到好康...

自从这个世界上有了互联网之后，我的弟弟便陷得无法自拔！除了上学、吃饭、冲凉，他的思想就只是被Get Amped充斥着。什么是Get Amped？那是一种极为低B兼无聊的线上游戏，只需轻按键盘几颗按钮，就能让他上瘾，真的有够笨。别人家的都是玩maple、dota、mafia，他就是偏偏...算了，这不是重点。

两天前预考终于结束，于是我便搬laptop回我的房间大玩特玩，（我玩的可是facebook的sorority life，有四颗星的热门度）。突然，我弟弟猛敲门，大喊他要玩电脑。我叫他读书，下星期考PMR了。当然，叫得动他的话成绩册就不会创下4E3D2C1B的辉煌纪录。我拒绝让他。

“砰！”门被撞开了。他强行进来，但没说话，就只站在一旁，站了约一刻钟。“我警告你，五点好给我用！”佛都有火！我赶他出去，他却拔掉电脑的broadband！然后，打我。之后，我赢了（因为我一直骂他没有用，他心虚）。他，下楼了。

我下去吃炒饭，他死命盯着我。我继续吃，他却跑来我面前想报仇。饭给他弄倒了（如图），他不懂做么站在原地。我没反他，他以为他很威风。接下来，我便跟他讲了一大堆人生大道理，有没有将夸张？就很像连续剧和普通安娣般所述。不想知道可跳下一段。

“你还有四天就考试了，考完试你想怎样？你现在跟废人有什么分别?打算读中四还是做废人？爸爸妈妈那么辛苦养我们，不读书怎样养回他们？”他还是怒盯着我。“你对我有什么不满意可以讲，我哪里得罪你也可以更正我。”他不讲话，应该形容，他讲不过我。“你不讲话，是因为道理在我这边，而你没有，所以选择打架来出气！”他开始要哭了。“你十五岁了啦，打算玩到八十岁进棺材啊？你读书啦！现在只有两个选择，一是读书，二是继续玩。你要怎样？我给你选！你要放弃我也不反对了，除了你没有人可以救你了！”“我给你最后一次机会，地上的饭给我收拾干净，我当什么都没有发生过。”

语闭，他便气冲冲地回房。留下我和一堆炒饭。真的不懂他在学校学到什么大便，老师没有教过你不可以浪费食物，没有听过非洲饥民几惨几惨的咩？！不过，我原谅你，因为学校Moral的确没有教，而我只记得Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan罢了~

五分钟后，奇迹发生了！他竟然. . . . . .竟然拿书进房读！！OMG！还好老师有教我信神，不然我会吓到晕倒~

这天发生的事，带来了几项启示：

1. 不要看小低B的online game，它可以让一个人丧失理智；

2. 原来世界上有奇迹；

3. 马来西亚的Moral科有待改进, 不过Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan很成功；

4. 有个姐姐真好~XD

5. 凡事都要做好最坏的打算。（不懂他能顶到几时）

最后，以煮Maggi面收场。我几怕他又再来，这次有烧水叻，不是开玩笑的. . .

很庆幸我还活生生的在这里和大家分享我“亲爱”的弟弟的所作所为。

好，究竟他的能耐可到什么限度呢？奇迹可否支撑到最后呢？我正冒着生命危险探讨当中。下回揭晓~阿弥陀佛。

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Before: 正在清理现场

After: Clear!